But funny enough this time it does feel different. I woke up November 1st madly in love with the person next to me. He felt warmer, softer. I just wanted to melt into him. I feel like I have come home. He’s my best friend. I could use every sappy cliche possible to describe how I feel and they would all be true.
I wont lie I was nervous. Silly right but I felt this immense pressure. I had to get it right this time. What’s really silly about that is there is no comparison between my past and us. The first time around was for all the wrong reasons and was missing all the key components. I had no clue what love and trust were. In the end it was just sad. I say I waited my whole life to love and have Matt. And I did. Don’t get me wrong I have loved and lost. But I have never given myself so completely to someone. He is my other half. I wont say he completes me cause thats gay(thanks Tom Cruise). He does make the days brighter. I laugh a little bit harder and louder. I see him and I love what I see. For the first time in my life I just know and wow that feels awesome. So yes it does feel different, it feels awesome!
XOXO Samantha Osborn














